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ICU

by Clutch Cabin

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1.
Me 03:56
Just me, myself, and I think I'm doubting That we're all alive, my heart's pounding I exit out my mind, I can't sit down I'm not alright, no I wasn't me today I wanna leave this place And never come back Never come back Wasn't myself this week Felt like hell in the heat And it's burning my back Said it's burning my back I left a while ago Wish I left on a higher note So I severed my past So I severed my past Feeling sick in the head "Do you need anything" She said to me, she said to me And so I said "No I'm content, well Not anything from you at least" From you at least And I swear it ain't personal I say my words wrong I don't mean to be hurtful Should've stuck with the first ones Should be stuck in a hearse gone With the magnitude of weight that I carry Enter my head, you gone need a search warrant Better bring back up, it could get scary Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here I wasn't me today I wanna leave this place And never come back Never come back Wasn't myself this week Felt like hell in the heat And it's burning my back Said it's burning my back I left a while ago Wish I left on a higher note So I severed my past So I severed my past Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
2.
Dissonance 03:02
I found out that silence isn't okay When there's only violence in my brain Hope to see my eyelids when I wake Picture perfect youth in a broken frame I live on an island with no waves Some days I'm flying with no cape And all I need is an escape Said all I need is just one day, cuz baby I'm fucked up in the best way Backwards, can't keep my head straight I gotta take two Take two away from here I guess my luck's up and I'm stressing Act more like you and stop pretending You should go take two Take two away from here I don't understand it Understand it with you I was hoping we could manage Maybe manage a two way street We could both pass on by No fuss about the love that we buried last time But these feelings are gone And I guess you are too Cuz these friends go blind When the pussy's in view Brothers for nothing Lovers got ugly Five years running Just to fuck him to fuck me Over, like you really did this time I slept on the floor while you clawed at my mind I kept every door wide open inside These bridges to fire, can't say that you tried Like I really did this time I paid your rent, got you a new ride I gave you life when you wanted a line I gave you love when you wasted all mine When you, when you Fucked up in the best way Backwards, can't keep my head straight I gotta take two Take two away from here I guess my luck's up and I'm stressing Act more like you and stop pretending You should go take two Take two away from here
3.
Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about me I'm about to dip under the stars for a minute Somehow this air is turning into liquid I'm drowning in the sky and I ain't even sipping But I'll be okay, I'll be okay if you listen I'll be okay, you just caught me off guard And you're bound to say that I've been the one Who makes it harder than it has to be Always winds up as a catastrophe I'm stone cold, I'm sorry you don't know half of me And the truth is I feel the same way You opened up to me And I felt her reciprocate Starting to suffocate I can't get used to Going through every day Trying to prove to Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about Nobody can tell anybody about me
4.
Tuesday 02:16
I was in the cut on a Tuesday I don't really fuck with your mood ring I was feeling great until you came my way Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid I wasn't in touch with today Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted My heart can't stand the blood on your hands Inside your clutch it was oozing It was oozing This love is confusing The rush I'm abusing And I think I might, think I might, think I might lose it When everyone sells me these subscriptions I don't wanna be in this position Stuck on repeat then I'm stuck on repeat Running prescriptions until I go missing Everyone tells me "take a rest" So I'll shoot my super then KMS And I ain't ever felt a drug like this And I don't really think I could again I was in the cut on a Tuesday I don't really fuck with your mood ring I was feeling great until you came my way Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid I wasn't in touch with today Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted My heart can't stand the blood on your hands Inside your clutch it was oozing I was in the cut on a Tuesday I don't really fuck with your mood ring I was feeling great until you came my way Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid I wasn't in touch with today Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted My heart can't stand the blood on your hands Inside your clutch it was oozing
5.
Monsoon 06:39
Got a bad heart, well a good heart But it's bad at functioning I never had a fast start I'm making excuses So don't be stunned to see When I'm out cold With my hands in my pocket Same hands I sold One was covering your blockage The other lying limp Only one hand out to the sky Same body, same limb One man dying under the light Some say I'd wake up If I wanted to And you'd be better off without me Cuz of the way I haunted you I put a heavy price tag on this bounty It wasn't about money About taking the Devil down Couldn't see sun for weeks I had one hand up to the cloud And it poured like April to June I came from water But I ain't bring the monsoon It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon Monsoon, monsoon Monsoon, monsoon Monsoon, monsoon I might've turned my ways to fire But that hasn't mattered since ash Now it's too late ask, it's too late to act Like you could've changed the past You didn't wait Barely could say Words to me I couldn't breath I couldn't stay Let alone stand the pain It was the worst of weeks Worst of years, maybe the best Cuz I learned a lot, but I'm still upset No more tears, I can't find em No more knots cuz I untied em I wasn't here, out in the west Smoking some pot and drinking with friends It wasn't clear, but something had left Something had stopped, something was dead Came home to a curb Guess I was caught in the current No more smoke at the church I wrote this verse and I wrote the next one Followed the hearse like I was the next one Maybe not first, but probably the second Shit was a blur, shit was a mess then Guess it still is, still in my head And I got a hell of a list to mention Nobody's home, it was a house now I drove alone until I went downtown Pick up the phone, said "I need an ounce now" I'm going southbound, I took a roundhouse So I bounce back I'm stuck with my past self So I bounce back I'm only in love at half health I bounce back I'm barely here for myself these days I carry fear through hell these days Full stomach, got bread on my plate Break it up and keep some in the safe Give some out to Dave Some out to Lucas Some to the Bay And some to my music Sun in my face Son of the blueprint Son of a bitch I can be ruthless Some days I look in a mirror Blank stare, can't tell who who is Intrusive thoughts start to influence Malice a language that I speak in fluent I was seized out onto the carpet Panic attack, it was the darkest Sorry my girl has this shit the hardest Dealing with me's like dealing with a martian Saw my life flash right before me Blackness that just absorbed me Fetal position, curled up on the floor he Had cold sweats, fired up, need morphine I need more from me I feel sore, I'm weak I need war to breathe I feel for my niece I had hope for peace Both hands out I plead I live north of east Where poor minds are pieced I can't fight my beast I can't find my sleep And you can finally Bounce back Dump the bucket on this sad hell If I bounce back Finally love my past self If I leave my head This is my send-off Hope that the afterlife isn't the end-all Be-all dead, I ripped the vent off My cards said that this would depend on me All this weight All this pain I could just cave But it would depend on me I tried to be vocal Tried to be hopeful Did it for Owen It would depend on me It would depend on me But fuck what if I liked it And what if I'm obsessed with becoming lifeless Tearing a hole right through my life vest World ain't gold if you ain't like Midas I crave the pain and anything paired with it Told my bro "I don't want a fucking therapist" I won't take help, maybe I'm scared of it I know myself enough to take care of him In hindsight, I miss those episodes I love my mind and I love the death we wrote Too content, now I need some tragedies Hit the plug's line, "How much you get for those?" And I can't bounce back from that, no, no I can't neglect my past, no, no, no, no I don't know what to say I don't know what to do now I'm in love with the pain I just hope it ain't true love Every day's the same Cooped up in my room now I don't know what to say What to say to you love
6.
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower, where my flower Said where my flower at I been circling for minutes Turn into hours fast I'm about to hit triple digits Said sit down relax I can't help but react That's just how it was rehearsed When we was just children Now I sit where the power's at Drift from the loudest, these boys stay rowdy But I keep the house intact This been a house of pain Jump heads like a shower cap Monsoon every ounce of reign And soon I'm a household name and act Used to be cloudy, but now that you found me The sky has star to track, hey I'm the producer, the poet The cup and the one that's gon hold it I am the magic, I am the showman Even if I had tricks up these sleeve, I ain't go be the one to show em I stay so hungry, to some it's confusing They don't get that eating is so time consuming I cook up for hours, I keep on the brewing I won't turn sour, but life is a mood ring So you never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting for what you want So you never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting for what you want Cuz never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting Cuz never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting Cuz never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting Cuz never really know, never really know nothing So you never really go, never really go hunting Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows Hell's a beautiful garden where my I said now, Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
7.
So this is the lesson Did you hear what I said Swear to god I'll be dead wrong In a matter of minutes I'll head Head on to the next one No, not what I meant Imma run 'til the bread's gone I don't care what I spend I been spending my time good And I feel so alive I've been doing what I should I been working inside of my mind No I can't rewind The author of my book I write every line these emotions that I took You could take it back off of my spine So maybe one day you could Just let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know Got me in my head right now And the room gon talk to me I been running for days, turn into nights Like who in the hell gon walk with me And I woke up down bad awfully I'm feeling nauseous Don't you dare start with me You should be cautious Just being honest I'm working through the process Take a look back And I'm seeing all the progress And now I'm screaming out your name when I'm bleeding I'm hanging from the ceiling I can't seem to shake this feeling inside Of my head Not again I'm a mess Can't forget what you said So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know So let me go God bless your soul I walk this road, I walk alone It's all I know
8.
Sp/it 02:40
I'm in love with the pain But she left me Why the fuck I still wait She's in my head please Stay far away Don't you test me Think I need another day Cuz she's resting Long nights ahead when I'm happy Songs write themselves when I'm masking I'm gone like the wind when she's packing I'm off like ten, twelve, when I'm crashing And I don't wanna be me when I am I only wanna be me when I'm not And I don't wanna be free when I am I only wanna be free when I'm not I took the day off Now I'm feeling like shit My feet are way off Of the cold pavement And I guess I asked for it I lost my passport I wanna fast forward I want a fast foreign But this is a crash course Open my last door Twenty-two years on foot I got bad sores I got some sad stories But imma laugh for it I get bad orders every damn morning I get mad cornered in every damn corner Wasn't prepared for even a half war Am I enough for a bitch I need a shoulder I need a crutch for a split Personalities, I don't wanna be Clutch for a min Enough of this ditch that I dig I ain't going up for a bit Feel the same, no diff I'm all aim, no hit All I make is hits Still don't make no sense Cuz I don't wanna be me when I am I only wanna be me when I'm not And I don't wanna be free when I am I only wanna be free when I'm not I don't wanna be me when I am I only wanna be me when I'm not And I don't wanna be free when I am I only wanna be free when I'm not
9.
goodbye 03:04
I think I'm losing it like right now I can't keep my mind off you I know that that's you when the lights out Crazy to think that I idolized you Hard to pipe down, you know I try to But I feel stuck in time I really fucking hate when I'm lied to And now I feel numb inside Told mom that I don't like life Cried talking about suicide Can't get over you, it's so overdue I would overdose, but can't fall in line Can't follow my father, how sad is that Can't drown in the water, hang like a plaque Screaming "I can't manage that" No healing, but the fam in tact and I'll stand for that Cuz we are broken We were chosen To take the thorns with the roses in this Sour life You can go get the fuck Right out of my Sour life I never feel enough I never feel enough I was fucked up since the moment that I called on you I still won't take meds to give my head a little bit of auto tune Tell me what else I oughta do These thoughts could really use a song or two But I've been putting them all on mute And I can't speak cuz my jaw's on loose My life came all unglued and now I'm fucked up I've been asking strangers to take my baggage Is this the man that you raised in havoc Five people living in a motherfucking package Life has felt like July Sandy Hook traffic I been in the bed with no sheets to lie on Trigger on the hill that I thought I woulda died on Maybe these bygones could've been bygones I lingered on loose ends, but I guess the tie's gone I guess my time's gone Bleach on the brain got my eyes crossed Wonder who I'd really rely on Who's gonna leave the light on I said who's gonna leave the light on for me Cuz we are broken We were chosen To take the thorns with the roses in this Sour life You can go get the fuck Right out of my Sour life I never feel enough For these people in my Sour life You can go get the fuck Right out of my Sour life I never feel enough I never feel enough
10.
stfu 01:44
My dad left me with his demons I don't wanna be in this hell At least he left one in all four seasons So I won't be alone all by myself Take your time now I got no respect You can go lie down In your death bed My momma told my girl That I'm suicidal She questioning "why though?" And I don't know what to say So I shut the fuck up That's when my walls start breathing Shut the fuck up Now my girl steady leaving Shut the fuck up That's what my thoughts are screaming At the ceiling, you can't hear me I shut the fuck up Now my walls start bleeding Shut the fuck up Now my girl, she's steady leaving Shut the fuck up Don't start with me At the ceiling, I don't think the world can hear me So I shut the fuck up Now my walls start bleeding I shut the fuck up Now my girl's steady leaving Shut the fuck up So my thoughts start screaming At the ceiling, I don't think the world can hear me cuz

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