1. |
Me
03:56
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Just me, myself, and I think I'm doubting
That we're all alive, my heart's pounding
I exit out my mind, I can't sit down
I'm not alright, no
I wasn't me today
I wanna leave this place
And never come back
Never come back
Wasn't myself this week
Felt like hell in the heat
And it's burning my back
Said it's burning my back
I left a while ago
Wish I left on a higher note
So I severed my past
So I severed my past
Feeling sick in the head
"Do you need anything"
She said to me, she said to me
And so I said
"No I'm content, well
Not anything from you at least"
From you at least
And I swear it ain't personal
I say my words wrong
I don't mean to be hurtful
Should've stuck with the first ones
Should be stuck in a hearse gone
With the magnitude of weight that I carry
Enter my head, you gone need a search warrant
Better bring back up, it could get scary
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
I wasn't me today
I wanna leave this place
And never come back
Never come back
Wasn't myself this week
Felt like hell in the heat
And it's burning my back
Said it's burning my back
I left a while ago
Wish I left on a higher note
So I severed my past
So I severed my past
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
Cuz there ain't no sleeping round here
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2. |
Dissonance
03:02
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I found out that silence isn't okay
When there's only violence in my brain
Hope to see my eyelids when I wake
Picture perfect youth in a broken frame
I live on an island with no waves
Some days I'm flying with no cape
And all I need is an escape
Said all I need is just one day, cuz baby
I'm fucked up in the best way
Backwards, can't keep my head straight
I gotta take two
Take two away from here
I guess my luck's up and I'm stressing
Act more like you and stop pretending
You should go take two
Take two away from here
I don't understand it
Understand it with you
I was hoping we could manage
Maybe manage a two way street
We could both pass on by
No fuss about the love that we buried last time
But these feelings are gone
And I guess you are too
Cuz these friends go blind
When the pussy's in view
Brothers for nothing
Lovers got ugly
Five years running
Just to fuck him to fuck me
Over, like you really did this time
I slept on the floor while you clawed at my mind
I kept every door wide open inside
These bridges to fire, can't say that you tried
Like I really did this time
I paid your rent, got you a new ride
I gave you life when you wanted a line
I gave you love when you wasted all mine
When you, when you
Fucked up in the best way
Backwards, can't keep my head straight
I gotta take two
Take two away from here
I guess my luck's up and I'm stressing
Act more like you and stop pretending
You should go take two
Take two away from here
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3. |
Ydobon (ft. wtvrZERO)
02:18
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Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about me
I'm about to dip under the stars for a minute
Somehow this air is turning into liquid
I'm drowning in the sky and I ain't even sipping
But I'll be okay, I'll be okay if you listen
I'll be okay, you just caught me off guard
And you're bound to say that I've been the one
Who makes it harder than it has to be
Always winds up as a catastrophe
I'm stone cold, I'm sorry you don't know half of me
And the truth is
I feel the same way
You opened up to me
And I felt her reciprocate
Starting to suffocate
I can't get used to
Going through every day
Trying to prove to
Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about
Nobody can tell anybody about me
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4. |
Tuesday
02:16
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I was in the cut on a Tuesday
I don't really fuck with your mood ring
I was feeling great until you came my way
Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid
I wasn't in touch with today
Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted
My heart can't stand the blood on your hands
Inside your clutch it was oozing
It was oozing
This love is confusing
The rush I'm abusing
And I think I might, think I might, think I might lose it
When everyone sells me these subscriptions
I don't wanna be in this position
Stuck on repeat then I'm stuck on repeat
Running prescriptions until I go missing
Everyone tells me "take a rest"
So I'll shoot my super then KMS
And I ain't ever felt a drug like this
And I don't really think I could again
I was in the cut on a Tuesday
I don't really fuck with your mood ring
I was feeling great until you came my way
Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid
I wasn't in touch with today
Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted
My heart can't stand the blood on your hands
Inside your clutch it was oozing
I was in the cut on a Tuesday
I don't really fuck with your mood ring
I was feeling great until you came my way
Sip another cup of the Kool-Aid
I wasn't in touch with today
Shrooms in my gut, I was zooted
My heart can't stand the blood on your hands
Inside your clutch it was oozing
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5. |
Monsoon
06:39
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Got a bad heart, well a good heart
But it's bad at functioning
I never had a fast start
I'm making excuses
So don't be stunned to see
When I'm out cold
With my hands in my pocket
Same hands I sold
One was covering your blockage
The other lying limp
Only one hand out to the sky
Same body, same limb
One man dying under the light
Some say I'd wake up
If I wanted to
And you'd be better off without me
Cuz of the way I haunted you
I put a heavy price tag on this bounty
It wasn't about money
About taking the Devil down
Couldn't see sun for weeks
I had one hand up to the cloud
And it poured like April to June
I came from water
But I ain't bring the monsoon
It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon
It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon
It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon
It's the monsoon, monsoon, monsoon
Monsoon, monsoon
Monsoon, monsoon
Monsoon, monsoon
I might've turned my ways to fire
But that hasn't mattered since ash
Now it's too late ask, it's too late to act
Like you could've changed the past
You didn't wait
Barely could say
Words to me
I couldn't breath
I couldn't stay
Let alone stand the pain
It was the worst of weeks
Worst of years, maybe the best
Cuz I learned a lot, but I'm still upset
No more tears, I can't find em
No more knots cuz I untied em
I wasn't here, out in the west
Smoking some pot and drinking with friends
It wasn't clear, but something had left
Something had stopped, something was dead
Came home to a curb
Guess I was caught in the current
No more smoke at the church
I wrote this verse and I wrote the next one
Followed the hearse like I was the next one
Maybe not first, but probably the second
Shit was a blur, shit was a mess then
Guess it still is, still in my head
And I got a hell of a list to mention
Nobody's home, it was a house now
I drove alone until I went downtown
Pick up the phone, said "I need an ounce now"
I'm going southbound, I took a roundhouse
So I bounce back
I'm stuck with my past self
So I bounce back
I'm only in love at half health
I bounce back
I'm barely here for myself these days
I carry fear through hell these days
Full stomach, got bread on my plate
Break it up and keep some in the safe
Give some out to Dave
Some out to Lucas
Some to the Bay
And some to my music
Sun in my face
Son of the blueprint
Son of a bitch
I can be ruthless
Some days I look in a mirror
Blank stare, can't tell who who is
Intrusive thoughts start to influence
Malice a language that I speak in fluent
I was seized out onto the carpet
Panic attack, it was the darkest
Sorry my girl has this shit the hardest
Dealing with me's like dealing with a martian
Saw my life flash right before me
Blackness that just absorbed me
Fetal position, curled up on the floor he
Had cold sweats, fired up, need morphine
I need more from me
I feel sore, I'm weak
I need war to breathe
I feel for my niece
I had hope for peace
Both hands out I plead
I live north of east
Where poor minds are pieced
I can't fight my beast
I can't find my sleep
And you can finally
Bounce back
Dump the bucket on this sad hell
If I bounce back
Finally love my past self
If I leave my head
This is my send-off
Hope that the afterlife isn't the end-all
Be-all dead, I ripped the vent off
My cards said that this would depend on me
All this weight
All this pain
I could just cave
But it would depend on me
I tried to be vocal
Tried to be hopeful
Did it for Owen
It would depend on me
It would depend on me
But fuck what if I liked it
And what if I'm obsessed with becoming lifeless
Tearing a hole right through my life vest
World ain't gold if you ain't like Midas
I crave the pain and anything paired with it
Told my bro "I don't want a fucking therapist"
I won't take help, maybe I'm scared of it
I know myself enough to take care of him
In hindsight, I miss those episodes
I love my mind and I love the death we wrote
Too content, now I need some tragedies
Hit the plug's line, "How much you get for those?"
And I can't bounce back from that, no, no
I can't neglect my past, no, no, no, no
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to do now
I'm in love with the pain
I just hope it ain't true love
Every day's the same
Cooped up in my room now
I don't know what to say
What to say to you love
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6. |
Hell's Garden
03:20
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Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower, where my flower
Said where my flower at
I been circling for minutes
Turn into hours fast
I'm about to hit triple digits
Said sit down relax
I can't help but react
That's just how it was rehearsed
When we was just children
Now I sit where the power's at
Drift from the loudest, these boys stay rowdy
But I keep the house intact
This been a house of pain
Jump heads like a shower cap
Monsoon every ounce of reign
And soon I'm a household name and act
Used to be cloudy, but now that you found me
The sky has star to track, hey
I'm the producer, the poet
The cup and the one that's gon hold it
I am the magic, I am the showman
Even if I had tricks up these sleeve, I ain't go be the one to show em
I stay so hungry, to some it's confusing
They don't get that eating is so time consuming
I cook up for hours, I keep on the brewing
I won't turn sour, but life is a mood ring
So you never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting for what you want
So you never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting for what you want
Cuz never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting
Cuz never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting
Cuz never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting
Cuz never really know, never really know nothing
So you never really go, never really go hunting
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
Hell's a beautiful garden where my
I said now, Hell's a beautiful garden where my flower grows
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7. |
LETMEGO (w/ BLANKiiCOLD)
03:22
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So this is the lesson
Did you hear what I said
Swear to god I'll be dead wrong
In a matter of minutes I'll head
Head on to the next one
No, not what I meant
Imma run 'til the bread's gone
I don't care what I spend
I been spending my time good
And I feel so alive
I've been doing what I should
I been working inside of my mind
No I can't rewind
The author of my book
I write every line
these emotions that I took
You could take it back off of my spine
So maybe one day you could
Just let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
Got me in my head right now
And the room gon talk to me
I been running for days, turn into nights
Like who in the hell gon walk with me
And I woke up down bad awfully
I'm feeling nauseous
Don't you dare start with me
You should be cautious
Just being honest
I'm working through the process
Take a look back
And I'm seeing all the progress
And now I'm screaming out your name when I'm bleeding
I'm hanging from the ceiling
I can't seem to shake this feeling inside
Of my head
Not again
I'm a mess
Can't forget what you said
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
So let me go
God bless your soul
I walk this road, I walk alone
It's all I know
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8. |
Sp/it
02:40
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I'm in love with the pain
But she left me
Why the fuck I still wait
She's in my head please
Stay far away
Don't you test me
Think I need another day
Cuz she's resting
Long nights ahead when I'm happy
Songs write themselves when I'm masking
I'm gone like the wind when she's packing
I'm off like ten, twelve, when I'm crashing
And I don't wanna be me when I am
I only wanna be me when I'm not
And I don't wanna be free when I am
I only wanna be free when I'm not
I took the day off
Now I'm feeling like shit
My feet are way off
Of the cold pavement
And I guess I asked for it
I lost my passport
I wanna fast forward
I want a fast foreign
But this is a crash course
Open my last door
Twenty-two years on foot
I got bad sores
I got some sad stories
But imma laugh for it
I get bad orders every damn morning
I get mad cornered in every damn corner
Wasn't prepared for even a half war
Am I enough for a bitch
I need a shoulder
I need a crutch for a split
Personalities, I don't wanna be Clutch for a min
Enough of this ditch that I dig
I ain't going up for a bit
Feel the same, no diff
I'm all aim, no hit
All I make is hits
Still don't make no sense
Cuz I don't wanna be me when I am
I only wanna be me when I'm not
And I don't wanna be free when I am
I only wanna be free when I'm not
I don't wanna be me when I am
I only wanna be me when I'm not
And I don't wanna be free when I am
I only wanna be free when I'm not
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9. |
goodbye
03:04
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I think I'm losing it like right now
I can't keep my mind off you
I know that that's you when the lights out
Crazy to think that I idolized you
Hard to pipe down, you know I try to
But I feel stuck in time
I really fucking hate when I'm lied to
And now I feel numb inside
Told mom that I don't like life
Cried talking about suicide
Can't get over you, it's so overdue
I would overdose, but can't fall in line
Can't follow my father, how sad is that
Can't drown in the water, hang like a plaque
Screaming "I can't manage that"
No healing, but the fam in tact and I'll stand for that
Cuz we are broken
We were chosen
To take the thorns with the roses in this
Sour life
You can go get the fuck
Right out of my
Sour life
I never feel enough
I never feel enough
I was fucked up since the moment that I called on you
I still won't take meds to give my head a little bit of auto tune
Tell me what else I oughta do
These thoughts could really use a song or two
But I've been putting them all on mute
And I can't speak cuz my jaw's on loose
My life came all unglued and now I'm fucked up
I've been asking strangers to take my baggage
Is this the man that you raised in havoc
Five people living in a motherfucking package
Life has felt like July Sandy Hook traffic
I been in the bed with no sheets to lie on
Trigger on the hill that I thought I woulda died on
Maybe these bygones could've been bygones
I lingered on loose ends, but I guess the tie's gone
I guess my time's gone
Bleach on the brain got my eyes crossed
Wonder who I'd really rely on
Who's gonna leave the light on
I said who's gonna leave the light on for me
Cuz we are broken
We were chosen
To take the thorns with the roses in this
Sour life
You can go get the fuck
Right out of my
Sour life
I never feel enough
For these people in my
Sour life
You can go get the fuck
Right out of my
Sour life
I never feel enough
I never feel enough
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10. |
stfu
01:44
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My dad left me with his demons
I don't wanna be in this hell
At least he left one in all four seasons
So I won't be alone all by myself
Take your time now
I got no respect
You can go lie down
In your death bed
My momma told my girl
That I'm suicidal
She questioning "why though?"
And I don't know what to say
So I shut the fuck up
That's when my walls start breathing
Shut the fuck up
Now my girl steady leaving
Shut the fuck up
That's what my thoughts are screaming
At the ceiling, you can't hear me
I shut the fuck up
Now my walls start bleeding
Shut the fuck up
Now my girl, she's steady leaving
Shut the fuck up
Don't start with me
At the ceiling, I don't think the world can hear me
So I shut the fuck up
Now my walls start bleeding
I shut the fuck up
Now my girl's steady leaving
Shut the fuck up
So my thoughts start screaming
At the ceiling, I don't think the world can hear me cuz
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